No exercising this week

So this week I am teaching Vacation Bible School. It has been fun, stressful & tiring. Thank God for the playground at church. It was sooo wonderful to let the kids just run and play, not worry about them hurting each other. It was like a peaceful refuge. I am so completely drained by the time I get home, I could sleep standing up. So, I am not exercising any this week. I just can't find the energy to do anything when I get home. I think I am still doing good with my weight though. My pants are super baggy. My scale says 220, but I don't trust it. I want to believe it really...but its always different than the one at the docs office.
Andy told me today that he will prolly be deploying next April. I know it has to happen. Its so easy to say I will be fine, but when he leaves...I lose it for some reason. Like I can't function. I am going to plan better this next time. Have a list of things to do to stay busy. Fear & worry are a sin afterall. If I have to put sticky notes all over my house with scripture on them, that IS what I will do to get through it.

I won't make apologies

I have found that alot of people support my decision to have WLS. Maybe they would never have it themselves, but they are still positive and encouraging to me. Thank God for those people. I don't take rejection well or people who think they are always right and don't hesitate to tell you. Everyone is entitled to their opinion. But if you really love and care about someone I think you should be an encouragement to them. Its funny to me that people who have made their mind up not to have WLS seem to be the most informed. Not the doctors, not the specialists...nope all that is apparently hogwash to some. THEY are the ones who know it all. The doctors are lieing when they tell you that you have a higher risk of dieing in a plane crash than dieing from WLS, the doctors are lieing when they tell you that you are in the overly obese catagory...I could go on and on. Some say doctors are in it to make money, that is not the case where I am concerned. My doctor is not a civilian, he gets paid a lump sum no matter how many surgeries he does. And he is a surgeon who specializes in WLS and does other kinds of surgery. So this is not a money racket for him.
Isn't it strange how the same people who would tell you WLS is bad and you shouldn't have it..or not support you are the same people who think its perfectly fine for a woman to have an abortion. Why is that? Its my body...right? And its not even close to murdering an innocent life.
I will not apologize for having WLS. I have worked very very hard to research this, go to support group meetings since last year, meet with specialists, and follow the directions of my surgeon.
I wish people would support my decision. It hurts when some people who are close to you can't be encouraging, only hurtful about the whole topic.